YOU ARE HERE TO BE A CREATIVE EXPRESSION OF GOD.

I think the more you review the hypothesis of this blog, you may begin to agree that God cannot care about you unless you care about yourself. God does not exist except in and through you.

Believe in Yourself.   Love Yourself.   Trust Yourself.  Have Faith in Yourself.

LIFE IS AN EXPRESSION OF CREATION.

CREATION IS GOD.

YOU ARE HERE TO BE A CREATIVE EXPRESSION OF GOD.

Until we can fully embody this idea we will continue to look to outward circumstances as our reality. We will continue to blame an unseen force for our circumstances. We will continue to live in the muck and mire of our belief that God will rescue us, sending a miracle to lift us out of the demise we have created, without doing anything for ourselves.

  

Do you not see that God created ALL as an expression and as the instrument to perform miracles, and expand original creation?

  

Can you for just one moment allow yourself to be that creative, miraculous expression? Even in anger we are expressing God. In a moment of self-doubt we are expressing God. In times of deep desire we express the emotions and feelings that God alone cannot express. Whenever we feel with sincerity, act with integrity, love without condition, we light the world with all that God imagined.

There would be no need for war, murder, theft, addiction, grief, hatred, blame if we could all just feel into the truth of our creation. We all are provided for in equal, unbiased measure. We are all gifted with skills and talents as needed, when needed. We all have equal opportunity to live according to our desires, in a harm to none way.

God is not a physical being who will be found in seeking. There are many who have heard the voice of God, seen the Light of God or the Hand of God, but the only way God can be heard or seen is through the individual lens of each being. It is an inward realization, not an outward presence. We may get a glimpse of what feels physical through another being expressing the ideas and thoughts we perceive to be God, but these are the expression of another.

Each of us has been programmed through childhood, past lives and daily experiences. These programs affect our belief in God and what God is and isn't. Please take a moment to sit with this and know the truth.

You are the God you are seeking. In each moment you can choose to be the Light of God or the Shadow of God, but nothing can change your creation. You can choose to be a certain way. You can choose to be a certain expression of your Creator. As this living expression of God, you draw upon your desires, and your creative imagination becomes physical manifestation.

How many years have you spent praying to a God that never seems to answer? How often have you blamed God for the circumstances of your life?

Are you ready to take your rightful power and create your desires? If you are ready for the responsibility, take time to meditate, to pray, to become that which you are desiring. You are the miracle. Can you take responsibility?



Is It Surrender or Just Giving Up?

I find myself sitting with the hypothesis (the theme of this blog) and wonder about the difference between surrender and giving up. If God doesn't care, and cannot be manipulated, how does surrender work?

With desires formed and goals set, what happens when we surrender their manifestation to the Universe, to this Energy that provides growth and expansion? Why is it I feel like I am giving up more than just control over the outcome of my dreams? How do we know what is appropriate action and what is getting in the way of God's Plan?

I consider my thoughts and feelings. Are they in integrity to the service of the "God Within All"? Are my desires fulfilling the bigger picture? Am I providing the love and caring expression that the Energy of God cannot provide? Most of all do my dreams and ambitions create growth and expression for the "God Within" me? What is the real purpose of my choice? Am I choosing for social status or approval or am I choosing greater life for all, including myself.

I think sometimes we worry about our decisions out of fear that we are selfish, or that we are not following a socially acceptable path. We wonder if God is happy with our desires. We continually question our worthiness to have what we want. We wonder if we should want less or strive for more.

When our dreams to be continually just out of reach, we feel rejected. This is the point when many begin their own process of manipulation. Here is the time of taking back control, justifying it with the thought that God has not done "his" part, so we must do it on our own.

What if instead we looked within to why we are rejecting ourselves? What is it that is missing from the inner sanctum of our creative force? What is lacking within? What are we projecting that is not congruent with what we desire? What is the contradiction of what we have and what we desire to have?

Are we using God as the excuse for not having our dreams come true? If you answer yes, then you have given up. If you say no, and look deeper within for the answer you will find true surrender, adjust the inner sanctum and continue to work faithfully toward the dream, knowing all will come to those who serve in trust.

Self-Imposed Prison

Hell is our self-imposed prison. It is not somewhere we are going, it is where we live now. Those people you cannot abide, the situations you cannot forgive, the memories of past mistakes, these are the hell we create.

You pray for forgiveness, you cry out to your angels and to God for help. Then you go about your day, still mired in the depths of your despair. At the end of the day, you once again denounce your faith, by asking, "God why are you not answering my prayers?", "Why is my life still such a mess?"

But God is not out there waiting for your cries for help. This energy fulfills its destiny, creating what you feel, think and act upon. There is no human form of God outside yourself. You are the God you seek, and what have you done to bring a miracle?

Have you on this most depressing day, brought joy to others? Have you forgiven your brother and yourself? Have you changed your thoughts from "help me" to "who may I help?", or "how can I help myself?"

We can look upon our errors, our lack of understanding, our foolishness and loss and know we were teaching or learning a lesson. In a moment we can let go and surrender our pain. This then is the miracle we wait upon from an energy that only gives and expands. This energy we call God can only forgive what we forgive, can only resolve what we surrender, can only give what we gratefully give ourselves and others.

The energy of God does not know loss, pain, suffering or lack. It is our ego asking us to reach out to God that knows these things. Do not seek to kill the ego, nor to give into it's manifestations in your life. Let this part of you be the awareness of what you are not serving in this life. Where pain or guilt exist, go to your God Within and remove the thoughts and feelings that suck you dry. Fill yourself with love and know the love that created you.

Do not ask this invisible power to give you what you have been unable to give yourself. That is not how it works. God can only be what you would choose to be. You cannot manipulate this energy to your will. You must allow this Energy's Will to be yours and that Will is to expand, grow, and be all that is creative, abundant, prosperous and beautiful. For that is all God knows.

God does not understand when you ask for a miracle for all of life is a miracle, but first open yourself to that fact and the miracle will occur.

We make the choice to grow or diminish.

2013 has begun as a year of what many would perceive as loss. Each day for the last 38 days something has been taken from me.  Yet, as I begin to fall asleep I hear again the words - "God Doesn't Care"!

These words have become a comfort to me. God is giving no matter how bad things seem in the moment. As I sit in the eye of the storm, I fear nothing. I can see what is being taken from me is creating a beautiful vacuum. And the Universe loves empty space. Space to fill. What gifts will I receive?

There is almost an air of excitement mixed with sorrow, loss of pride, and greater surrender to the endless, limitless supply we call God. I do not know what is in store for me but it must be something bountiful. Perhaps something wonderfully progressive or expansive. In faith I go forward into tomorrow. With each loss, I gain. I gain wisdom, strength, courage. With each loss, the sorrow fills me with compassion for you, my fellow journeyman.

I ask yet again - how may I serve? What blessing can I be to the world? Who benefits from this loss? Thank you for creating the space, the obstacles, the challenges which create growth. With this new wisdom who may I help?

God may not care. This energy follows the laws of nature implicitly, without fail and I am grateful to put the fullness of my emotion into the energy to create a more beautiful place for life and laughter. I take responsibility to be the the feelings that the Energy of God cannot be.

Knowing that God cannot exist without our beingness gives power to my thoughts, words and actions. I/You are the expression of God. How do you express this Power? Who can you serve? This Energy only knows growth and expansion. We make the choice to grow or diminish. What is your choice?

Introduction to the Hypothesis

This blog is dedicated to the hypothesis, a book I am currently writing and the new perspective I live with on a daily basis.

Have you ever had one of those nights when you went to bed, with ideas running through your head, worries laying heavily on your heart, your prayers filled with “God please help me?”  The day might have been spent with desperate moments of “What do You want from me?” “If you were a loving God I would not be worrying. You would take care of this.” “Where are You when I need You?” Are any of these phrases familiar?

Here began the answer to my prayers and my questions.

 A swirl of color circles round me.  Engulfed in colors I had never seen before, feeling warm, embraced, filled with light.  Am I glowing?  Floating, going somewhere, but where?  Who is with me?  How is it that I am not falling?  Wait – where is my body?  What is this place of golden light?  Spirals of color, silver or green?  No, I look again, the light mingles and mixes and once again, I look, the color is forever changing.  Shades of pink, laced with gold create a mist that somehow is supporting me as I hover weightlessly in space. Where is this place? I see no one, but I am not alone. Is this peace? Is this what pure love feels like? What is this sense of bliss? No words describe the feeling, the sounds, the lights, the colors. Have I heard that melody before? Where and when? I am safe, so comfortable here. Deep appreciation wells up as I allow the sound and colors to permeate my being. This is home! Why would I have ever left this place? What could possibly have convinced me to leave this for a physical body filled with confusion, chaos, and constant struggle? Where are my guides, my angels? Where is the voice of God? I call out without speaking, “Can you see me, can you hear me? Please with all this love surrounding me, I implore you to answer me.”

In an instant a startling message woke me from this peaceful dream. In the midst of the color and bliss, the words, “God doesn’t care”, came through loud and clear. Immediately awakened, I tried to close my eyes again, to drift back into the euphoria of color and sound. “God doesn’t care about what?” I asked. 

Excerpt from "What If God Doesn't Care?"

At this point I drifted back into sleep. When I awoke in the morning I remembered the message given me and the dream. Quickly writing what I remembered from the dream, I spent several days meditating and pondering over the feelings and the message. How could God not care? I had spent most of my life confused about whether He was a loving God or one not to be reckoned with. It had never dawned on me that he wouldn't care.

This confusion often led me on a journey to discover God, but when it seemed I couldn't find the Illusive One, I would settle back into a practical life, until once again my curiosity was raised.

Several days after the dream, the hypothesis was created. I have spent two years questioning this perspective, journalling daily events and occurences, how my prayers are answered, why they are not answered and how my attitude and emotion control manifestation.  I am ready to share what has been shown me. Knock and the door will be opened to you. Seek and you will find.
Writing this book has inspired me to find the sacred in all things, to seek within, and understand that all that exists come from within. The external is merely the physical manifestation of what we believe to be true.
Join me on this blog and this journey to discover your own God realization, and see if you are ready to take responsibility for all that you have expected God to do and be for you.