Is It Surrender or Just Giving Up?

I find myself sitting with the hypothesis (the theme of this blog) and wonder about the difference between surrender and giving up. If God doesn't care, and cannot be manipulated, how does surrender work?

With desires formed and goals set, what happens when we surrender their manifestation to the Universe, to this Energy that provides growth and expansion? Why is it I feel like I am giving up more than just control over the outcome of my dreams? How do we know what is appropriate action and what is getting in the way of God's Plan?

I consider my thoughts and feelings. Are they in integrity to the service of the "God Within All"? Are my desires fulfilling the bigger picture? Am I providing the love and caring expression that the Energy of God cannot provide? Most of all do my dreams and ambitions create growth and expression for the "God Within" me? What is the real purpose of my choice? Am I choosing for social status or approval or am I choosing greater life for all, including myself.

I think sometimes we worry about our decisions out of fear that we are selfish, or that we are not following a socially acceptable path. We wonder if God is happy with our desires. We continually question our worthiness to have what we want. We wonder if we should want less or strive for more.

When our dreams to be continually just out of reach, we feel rejected. This is the point when many begin their own process of manipulation. Here is the time of taking back control, justifying it with the thought that God has not done "his" part, so we must do it on our own.

What if instead we looked within to why we are rejecting ourselves? What is it that is missing from the inner sanctum of our creative force? What is lacking within? What are we projecting that is not congruent with what we desire? What is the contradiction of what we have and what we desire to have?

Are we using God as the excuse for not having our dreams come true? If you answer yes, then you have given up. If you say no, and look deeper within for the answer you will find true surrender, adjust the inner sanctum and continue to work faithfully toward the dream, knowing all will come to those who serve in trust.

We make the choice to grow or diminish.

2013 has begun as a year of what many would perceive as loss. Each day for the last 38 days something has been taken from me.  Yet, as I begin to fall asleep I hear again the words - "God Doesn't Care"!

These words have become a comfort to me. God is giving no matter how bad things seem in the moment. As I sit in the eye of the storm, I fear nothing. I can see what is being taken from me is creating a beautiful vacuum. And the Universe loves empty space. Space to fill. What gifts will I receive?

There is almost an air of excitement mixed with sorrow, loss of pride, and greater surrender to the endless, limitless supply we call God. I do not know what is in store for me but it must be something bountiful. Perhaps something wonderfully progressive or expansive. In faith I go forward into tomorrow. With each loss, I gain. I gain wisdom, strength, courage. With each loss, the sorrow fills me with compassion for you, my fellow journeyman.

I ask yet again - how may I serve? What blessing can I be to the world? Who benefits from this loss? Thank you for creating the space, the obstacles, the challenges which create growth. With this new wisdom who may I help?

God may not care. This energy follows the laws of nature implicitly, without fail and I am grateful to put the fullness of my emotion into the energy to create a more beautiful place for life and laughter. I take responsibility to be the the feelings that the Energy of God cannot be.

Knowing that God cannot exist without our beingness gives power to my thoughts, words and actions. I/You are the expression of God. How do you express this Power? Who can you serve? This Energy only knows growth and expansion. We make the choice to grow or diminish. What is your choice?