Resistance of the Truth

A beautifully quiet Sunday Morning. A blanket of snow covers the ground. It is time to shift from doing to being. Summer is filled with busy bees and butterflies. Winter becomes a gentler time of softly falling snow creating diamonds and sparkle for our pleasure.

I always dread the idea of winter, but once here, it brings a sense of peace, of calm. I think perhaps it is resistance in having no control of when this season will fall upon us, along with no sense of knowing how long winter will stay. As I consider this, I ask myself where else I find resistance, out of a need to be in control.

It comes to me, that most often people would rather be in control, even more than they want to be happy.

As I continue my search for proof of my hypothesis, I consider this idea of control, ideas of resistance and non-resistance, allowing, letting go, giving, receiving. I consider the terms religious, spiritual, Christian, atheist. I have spent much time in meditation over the ideas of theology and science.

Where once theology and science were almost opposite ends of the spectrum, the gap is now closing. Once again we see how the struggle for power, had been more important than the facts. We see this same struggle with traditional medicine and wholistic. This same power game keeps us locked in a control game with nature, our jobs, relationships, businesses and ourselves.

I smile when I hear someone use words, I have also used in the past. "I am not religious, I am Spiritual." It is often said with such emphasis on the Spiritual. One day in meditation of something I had heard in a workshop, I began to see the phrase as just another way of resisting the truth, staying in control, holding power over our own lives and beliefs.

In truth, if we look deeper scientists will tell us Energy is everywhere, in all things, has no beginning and no end. Theologians will say, "God is everywhere, in all things, has no beginning and no end." Energy and God therefore are omnipresent. Omnipotent means to me powerful, mighty, supreme and many will say this word can only refer to God, yet I ask you to think about the changing seasons or weather conditions. Is nature not the omnipotent one? And yes, you may say God is in charge of nature. Yet so are we. We, as humans, given dominion over the earth, affect nature in many ways. So then, does that make us omnipotent, the all powerful, supreme?

As we move through the definitions we begin to question if there is only one supreme power and whatever name we give it, it is everywhere, in all things, has no beginning and no end, how do we as humans become so arrogant as to think we are separate or apart from that energy? How could it even be possible for us to be separate?

And yet in our need to be in control, when times are tough or things aren't working out the way we want, we lose a loved one, find ourselves in the midst of a messy divorce, lose our home, or our job, we desperately look for something outside of ourselves to blame. And this blame is often toward God, Spirit, the economy, the government, our neighbors, or family members, some unknown person, somewhere...... Who and what are these powers, outside of ourselves?

In all honesty, I think blame is just another way of resistance to the truth. I think we need to be so in control and yet when our way is not working, we still want someone else to be wrong. And I think we would rather blame than take responsibility, because in truth God doesn't care. This energy which has no beginning and no end, is everywhere present at all times and in all things, can only express through the creative forces which exist in all places, at all times, and that creative is force is the humans, who were given the faculties to have dominion over all other creations.

Much of the problem really exists in all the confusion of, "Let go, surrender, accept, be the change, take charge of your life, just allow, just be, ........." So many statements of how to be, yet saying you are perfect just as you are. Such contradictions, just as the seasons seem contrary. Seek peace, yet we watch nature in a fight of the fittest. Tsunamis and earthquakes do not speak of balance and harmony. And you may be asking how are we in control of these?

It is all a vibration and it comes from the most prominent vibration of the collective mass. When there is discord among the people there will be a reflection of it through nature. Nature is our guidance system. Should you feel personally responsible for storms and wars which feel out of your control. Perhaps not, but perhaps you should look a little deeper to see what chaos, hatred, guilt or shame you harbor within, that is assisting nature in taking on a tumultuous vibration, releasing it in the world. For all energy, good, glorious, or chaotic must move, change, release, allow, surrender and let go.

Just as there is a season for all things, there is a time to surrender, and time to allow, a time to be the change, and a time to take control. For this reason, we Energy Beings were given a heart, intuition, thinking faculties, and reasoning powers. We were not given these gifts to complain about the weather, the environment, the economy, our community, our country or the world. We were given these powers so creation could continue. No one but us, is responsible for what is being created.

Whether you are religious or spiritual is of no significance what so ever. A label cannot change the truth. For truth is something that cannot be changed, it has no beginning, no end and exists as the same in all things, without prejudice.

Rubix Cube and the Aha Moment

The rubix cube - how many I hours I spent twisting and turning trying to bring the cube into alignment. Once into alignment I would mess it up and begin again. Does that sound like your life too?

This morning, during meditation I asked how can I show people a clearer way of understanding their core, that part of them that doesn't change. As I sat with eyes closed waiting for the answer, I was shown a rubix cube. "Okay", I thought, "sometimes the answer makes less sense than the question.



 It wasn't until a few moments ago, it hit me. The rubix cube not only shows us full alignment, it also shows us the way we mess up our lives, as we twist and turn, trying to get our core (Higher Power) to do want we want.

The central working part of this toy or puzzle never changes. If we try to manipulate it too much, it becomes even more difficult to realign. It we try even harder, it will break and the pieces around it will fall away, but the mechanism remains the same.

Sometimes you can get one or two sides to line up, and if you lay it right on the table, no one can see that the rest of the puzzle is still mixed up. Yet within, the part that turns the cubes is still in correct position, waiting for you to come back and try again. Others will look at the puzzle and think you have it all together, but they do not see what is going on underneath.

Manipulation of this puzzle is useless. There is a certain set of turn and twists that create the correct alignment of all the cubes. It is all there for you to create your masterpiece, but you  must have the patient to sit with it, study it, and move it in the right direction. Once in alignment you can then leave it alone, knowing it will not change unless you choose to mess it up again.

So next time you are wondering about the mechanism of you, consider the rubix cube. The principles are the same. Nothing changes - it is all there, just not properly aligned. With patience and a never give up attitude, you will find the answer to all of life's puzzles. Using our mind in the right way will always produce the results we are seeking.

The main difference between us and the rubix cube, is that our mechanism bends a little more, and if we leave it to do it's job, the realignment will be done for us. We can break part of our life, but always our Higher Power stays intact waiting for us to ask for assistance in recreating balance and harmony in our lives. It goes nowhere while we go off in separate directions seeking something illusive and not necessarily for our best interest. When we are ready we can pop the pieces back together and the cube will once again twist and turn with us until we find our perfect place again.

I hope this helps all those who have asked me what I mean when I say, "Don't Change For Heaven's Sake". Simply look to the core of your being where nothing changes and allow the puzzle pieces to fall into place.

Know you are blessed and you are a blessing in this world.

A Post Without A Title

You may find this post has little point or no directional thread. Though I usually write from a place of sharing inspiration, this post may not be even that but perhaps it will be a jumping off point for some of you to begin to accept who you are and love the gifts you have been given.

I hear and see so much pain, fear and suffering these days. Facebook posts are either depressing or a fantasy of hope of good things to come. Some inspire telling us, in truth your good is here now. Stop looking ahead, behind and to either side to find it. It has always been with you and is there inside of you now.

I experience so much practicing energy awareness, if this is a proper term. I have become uncomfortable with the terms, healer, teacher, energy practitioner. It is as though these terms set me apart from others, when in truth we are all healers, teachers and practitioners. I find it arrogant to think my experience of the energy that surrounds us all is superior to the experiences of others.

So at this point in my life, I find I have no title. I have taken classes that offer me titles such as Stress Management Consultant, Book of Life Specialist, Delegate of the Light, Reiki Master..... none of which feel comfortable these days. Raised in the United Church, attending Catholic services for 10 years, studying Angels, Wicca, Shamanism, Energy Medicine and Reiki as well as varied holistic modalities over the past 25 years has provided me with a balance and blend of interesting beliefs.

I take note of what seems to make people happy. For some happiness comes in terms of money, for others it is their health, others look to their spouse or children to make them happy, children expect their parents to make them happy. For some happiness is elusive, completely related to how successful they feel in their jobs. Others use a happy exterior to cover the pain they carry inside. So what is happy? It is a question I have been asking for about 47 years now, as I made a youthful promise to make the world a happier place, if only I could be happy.

For years I blamed God, because I could not find this elusive attribute. I practiced the fake it til you make it approach, and after years of faking it realized that approach was just too much work with very little gain. Yes, I had moments. Moments when I thought, "This is it!" "I've made it.". Yet when I blinked it disappeared in an instant.

I knew I was happiest when outside with trees, birds, flowers and bright blue skies, and learned that shamanism was about finding our connection to Source through nature. The thought of Angels brought a feeling of peace, so I studied and experienced what they offered in terms of joy. Reiki fell into my life, giving me the experience of allowing energy to flow, without having to be in control. At first this was scary, for my control freak personality, but it became the catalyst for discovering that joy and happiness do not come from external sources, or events occurring around me. In fact I discovered happiness was easier to reach when I was alone. So how could I take this happiness of solitude out into the world?

In the process of taking it out into the world, I discovered I could not make others happy just because I had found that inner joy for myself. It is impossible to make another happy. This itself made me feel quite sad for a while, and in fact I still fall into helplessness at times when I see so much pain and suffering in the world. There are many reasons some just can't seem to find the sparkle in life. It may be clinical, drug induced, hormone related, and multiple medical reasons. For some it is a belief they are not worthy of happiness, and others just don't know what they would talk about if they had no reason to complain.

I understand many of the reasons, having experienced them for myself. I even understand those who now avoid me because they just can't handle someone being happy through loss and depressing economic times. I can only apologize. It is not that I do not have compassion for your misery. It is just I find more strength in faith and trust, than in pity and tears. Somewhat selfish perhaps.

For those who suffer for medical reasons I hold out hope you will find good therapies, the right medications to balance your hormones and chemistry. I pray you will continue to seek within to find the connection, helping you to be the joyful person you are inside. I support you in your acceptance of the life you have chosen. I commend you for sharing your journey so others will know they are not alone, and most all be inspired to seek help and support on their own journey. You are my heroes. I believe what many of you feel is a curse, is really a gift which Spirit knows you are strong enough to carry.

There are spaces reserved in my heart for those who are no longer with me in this life. I will not mourn their passing for I know they are still with me. I miss them, yes and yet recognize how much closer I can be with them than before they passed.

I do feel sympathy for the concerns people have right now for loss of jobs, loss of security. Or at least loss of the security they believe is important. Changing times are always scary when we believe houses, cars, boats, and bank accounts are what is important. (Personally, I am just checking to make sure I have enough money to buy plane fare to a beautiful beach. If I am homeless, I think a beach would be better than an unyielding sidewalk.) I say this not to make fun of your fear, but in all seriousness. There really is a bright side to be seen.

Those who used to sell horse and buggies must have suffered the same fear when cars became the newest means of travel. Our railways have lost significance to air travel. Many of our parents suffered the dirty 30's - even more significant is the fact that they survived. This generation also came through at least one if not two world wars and the Russian cold war. How many small farmers were engulfed by big farming operations, there way of life changed forever?

The biggest thing of note is SURVIVAL. It is what we do. We can choose to survive through suffering, or survive in thanks. We can move forward in faith and joy, choosing peace rather than greed and anger. We can inspire rather than try to bring others down, just because we are unhappy. We can support and work together.

No we can't make others happy, yet if we are happy our energy swirls through the atmosphere. If we are peace that too is carried on the wind. If we are strong in the face of our troubles, that strength will carry another.

So it is okay that I have no title. A title is not required. Making others happy is not my job. Being happy though is my responsibility. It is my choice. It is who I am. If I can inspire others to choose to be who they are, without embarrassment or apology, that is all that matters. You may be born to be peace, to be prosperity, to be the embodiment of health. You may be born to be the role model for those who struggle with health and happiness. It does not matter. Your label does not represent your goodness. Only what is inside and what you share with the world matters.

The more work I do as a "healer" and "teacher" the more I love and respect those who reach beyond the label the world has put on them. I see within each person I meet a spark of the Divine who has given us purpose through our creation. If only we could accept the part we were given to play, instead of constantly striving to play the parts of others.

Today I accept and allow myself to just be, knowing no matter what happens in the world, I will be guided and directed to do the next good thing I was created to do.

Thank you to all who have been part of this journey. May we continue to travel together learning from each other, inspiring and supporting through the best of times, yet to come.