Hell is our self-imposed prison. It is not somewhere we are going, it is where we live now. Those people you cannot abide, the situations you cannot forgive, the memories of past mistakes, these are the hell we create.
You pray for forgiveness, you cry out to your angels and to God for help. Then you go about your day, still mired in the depths of your despair. At the end of the day, you once again denounce your faith, by asking, "God why are you not answering my prayers?", "Why is my life still such a mess?"
But God is not out there waiting for your cries for help. This energy fulfills its destiny, creating what you feel, think and act upon. There is no human form of God outside yourself. You are the God you seek, and what have you done to bring a miracle?
Have you on this most depressing day, brought joy to others? Have you forgiven your brother and yourself? Have you changed your thoughts from "help me" to "who may I help?", or "how can I help myself?"
We can look upon our errors, our lack of understanding, our foolishness and loss and know we were teaching or learning a lesson. In a moment we can let go and surrender our pain. This then is the miracle we wait upon from an energy that only gives and expands. This energy we call God can only forgive what we forgive, can only resolve what we surrender, can only give what we gratefully give ourselves and others.
The energy of God does not know loss, pain, suffering or lack. It is our ego asking us to reach out to God that knows these things. Do not seek to kill the ego, nor to give into it's manifestations in your life. Let this part of you be the awareness of what you are not serving in this life. Where pain or guilt exist, go to your God Within and remove the thoughts and feelings that suck you dry. Fill yourself with love and know the love that created you.
Do not ask this invisible power to give you what you have been unable to give yourself. That is not how it works. God can only be what you would choose to be. You cannot manipulate this energy to your will. You must allow this Energy's Will to be yours and that Will is to expand, grow, and be all that is creative, abundant, prosperous and beautiful. For that is all God knows.
God does not understand when you ask for a miracle for all of life is a miracle, but first open yourself to that fact and the miracle will occur.
