Self-Imposed Prison

Hell is our self-imposed prison. It is not somewhere we are going, it is where we live now. Those people you cannot abide, the situations you cannot forgive, the memories of past mistakes, these are the hell we create.

You pray for forgiveness, you cry out to your angels and to God for help. Then you go about your day, still mired in the depths of your despair. At the end of the day, you once again denounce your faith, by asking, "God why are you not answering my prayers?", "Why is my life still such a mess?"

But God is not out there waiting for your cries for help. This energy fulfills its destiny, creating what you feel, think and act upon. There is no human form of God outside yourself. You are the God you seek, and what have you done to bring a miracle?

Have you on this most depressing day, brought joy to others? Have you forgiven your brother and yourself? Have you changed your thoughts from "help me" to "who may I help?", or "how can I help myself?"

We can look upon our errors, our lack of understanding, our foolishness and loss and know we were teaching or learning a lesson. In a moment we can let go and surrender our pain. This then is the miracle we wait upon from an energy that only gives and expands. This energy we call God can only forgive what we forgive, can only resolve what we surrender, can only give what we gratefully give ourselves and others.

The energy of God does not know loss, pain, suffering or lack. It is our ego asking us to reach out to God that knows these things. Do not seek to kill the ego, nor to give into it's manifestations in your life. Let this part of you be the awareness of what you are not serving in this life. Where pain or guilt exist, go to your God Within and remove the thoughts and feelings that suck you dry. Fill yourself with love and know the love that created you.

Do not ask this invisible power to give you what you have been unable to give yourself. That is not how it works. God can only be what you would choose to be. You cannot manipulate this energy to your will. You must allow this Energy's Will to be yours and that Will is to expand, grow, and be all that is creative, abundant, prosperous and beautiful. For that is all God knows.

God does not understand when you ask for a miracle for all of life is a miracle, but first open yourself to that fact and the miracle will occur.

We make the choice to grow or diminish.

2013 has begun as a year of what many would perceive as loss. Each day for the last 38 days something has been taken from me.  Yet, as I begin to fall asleep I hear again the words - "God Doesn't Care"!

These words have become a comfort to me. God is giving no matter how bad things seem in the moment. As I sit in the eye of the storm, I fear nothing. I can see what is being taken from me is creating a beautiful vacuum. And the Universe loves empty space. Space to fill. What gifts will I receive?

There is almost an air of excitement mixed with sorrow, loss of pride, and greater surrender to the endless, limitless supply we call God. I do not know what is in store for me but it must be something bountiful. Perhaps something wonderfully progressive or expansive. In faith I go forward into tomorrow. With each loss, I gain. I gain wisdom, strength, courage. With each loss, the sorrow fills me with compassion for you, my fellow journeyman.

I ask yet again - how may I serve? What blessing can I be to the world? Who benefits from this loss? Thank you for creating the space, the obstacles, the challenges which create growth. With this new wisdom who may I help?

God may not care. This energy follows the laws of nature implicitly, without fail and I am grateful to put the fullness of my emotion into the energy to create a more beautiful place for life and laughter. I take responsibility to be the the feelings that the Energy of God cannot be.

Knowing that God cannot exist without our beingness gives power to my thoughts, words and actions. I/You are the expression of God. How do you express this Power? Who can you serve? This Energy only knows growth and expansion. We make the choice to grow or diminish. What is your choice?