Resistance of the Truth

A beautifully quiet Sunday Morning. A blanket of snow covers the ground. It is time to shift from doing to being. Summer is filled with busy bees and butterflies. Winter becomes a gentler time of softly falling snow creating diamonds and sparkle for our pleasure.

I always dread the idea of winter, but once here, it brings a sense of peace, of calm. I think perhaps it is resistance in having no control of when this season will fall upon us, along with no sense of knowing how long winter will stay. As I consider this, I ask myself where else I find resistance, out of a need to be in control.

It comes to me, that most often people would rather be in control, even more than they want to be happy.

As I continue my search for proof of my hypothesis, I consider this idea of control, ideas of resistance and non-resistance, allowing, letting go, giving, receiving. I consider the terms religious, spiritual, Christian, atheist. I have spent much time in meditation over the ideas of theology and science.

Where once theology and science were almost opposite ends of the spectrum, the gap is now closing. Once again we see how the struggle for power, had been more important than the facts. We see this same struggle with traditional medicine and wholistic. This same power game keeps us locked in a control game with nature, our jobs, relationships, businesses and ourselves.

I smile when I hear someone use words, I have also used in the past. "I am not religious, I am Spiritual." It is often said with such emphasis on the Spiritual. One day in meditation of something I had heard in a workshop, I began to see the phrase as just another way of resisting the truth, staying in control, holding power over our own lives and beliefs.

In truth, if we look deeper scientists will tell us Energy is everywhere, in all things, has no beginning and no end. Theologians will say, "God is everywhere, in all things, has no beginning and no end." Energy and God therefore are omnipresent. Omnipotent means to me powerful, mighty, supreme and many will say this word can only refer to God, yet I ask you to think about the changing seasons or weather conditions. Is nature not the omnipotent one? And yes, you may say God is in charge of nature. Yet so are we. We, as humans, given dominion over the earth, affect nature in many ways. So then, does that make us omnipotent, the all powerful, supreme?

As we move through the definitions we begin to question if there is only one supreme power and whatever name we give it, it is everywhere, in all things, has no beginning and no end, how do we as humans become so arrogant as to think we are separate or apart from that energy? How could it even be possible for us to be separate?

And yet in our need to be in control, when times are tough or things aren't working out the way we want, we lose a loved one, find ourselves in the midst of a messy divorce, lose our home, or our job, we desperately look for something outside of ourselves to blame. And this blame is often toward God, Spirit, the economy, the government, our neighbors, or family members, some unknown person, somewhere...... Who and what are these powers, outside of ourselves?

In all honesty, I think blame is just another way of resistance to the truth. I think we need to be so in control and yet when our way is not working, we still want someone else to be wrong. And I think we would rather blame than take responsibility, because in truth God doesn't care. This energy which has no beginning and no end, is everywhere present at all times and in all things, can only express through the creative forces which exist in all places, at all times, and that creative is force is the humans, who were given the faculties to have dominion over all other creations.

Much of the problem really exists in all the confusion of, "Let go, surrender, accept, be the change, take charge of your life, just allow, just be, ........." So many statements of how to be, yet saying you are perfect just as you are. Such contradictions, just as the seasons seem contrary. Seek peace, yet we watch nature in a fight of the fittest. Tsunamis and earthquakes do not speak of balance and harmony. And you may be asking how are we in control of these?

It is all a vibration and it comes from the most prominent vibration of the collective mass. When there is discord among the people there will be a reflection of it through nature. Nature is our guidance system. Should you feel personally responsible for storms and wars which feel out of your control. Perhaps not, but perhaps you should look a little deeper to see what chaos, hatred, guilt or shame you harbor within, that is assisting nature in taking on a tumultuous vibration, releasing it in the world. For all energy, good, glorious, or chaotic must move, change, release, allow, surrender and let go.

Just as there is a season for all things, there is a time to surrender, and time to allow, a time to be the change, and a time to take control. For this reason, we Energy Beings were given a heart, intuition, thinking faculties, and reasoning powers. We were not given these gifts to complain about the weather, the environment, the economy, our community, our country or the world. We were given these powers so creation could continue. No one but us, is responsible for what is being created.

Whether you are religious or spiritual is of no significance what so ever. A label cannot change the truth. For truth is something that cannot be changed, it has no beginning, no end and exists as the same in all things, without prejudice.

Rubix Cube and the Aha Moment

The rubix cube - how many I hours I spent twisting and turning trying to bring the cube into alignment. Once into alignment I would mess it up and begin again. Does that sound like your life too?

This morning, during meditation I asked how can I show people a clearer way of understanding their core, that part of them that doesn't change. As I sat with eyes closed waiting for the answer, I was shown a rubix cube. "Okay", I thought, "sometimes the answer makes less sense than the question.



 It wasn't until a few moments ago, it hit me. The rubix cube not only shows us full alignment, it also shows us the way we mess up our lives, as we twist and turn, trying to get our core (Higher Power) to do want we want.

The central working part of this toy or puzzle never changes. If we try to manipulate it too much, it becomes even more difficult to realign. It we try even harder, it will break and the pieces around it will fall away, but the mechanism remains the same.

Sometimes you can get one or two sides to line up, and if you lay it right on the table, no one can see that the rest of the puzzle is still mixed up. Yet within, the part that turns the cubes is still in correct position, waiting for you to come back and try again. Others will look at the puzzle and think you have it all together, but they do not see what is going on underneath.

Manipulation of this puzzle is useless. There is a certain set of turn and twists that create the correct alignment of all the cubes. It is all there for you to create your masterpiece, but you  must have the patient to sit with it, study it, and move it in the right direction. Once in alignment you can then leave it alone, knowing it will not change unless you choose to mess it up again.

So next time you are wondering about the mechanism of you, consider the rubix cube. The principles are the same. Nothing changes - it is all there, just not properly aligned. With patience and a never give up attitude, you will find the answer to all of life's puzzles. Using our mind in the right way will always produce the results we are seeking.

The main difference between us and the rubix cube, is that our mechanism bends a little more, and if we leave it to do it's job, the realignment will be done for us. We can break part of our life, but always our Higher Power stays intact waiting for us to ask for assistance in recreating balance and harmony in our lives. It goes nowhere while we go off in separate directions seeking something illusive and not necessarily for our best interest. When we are ready we can pop the pieces back together and the cube will once again twist and turn with us until we find our perfect place again.

I hope this helps all those who have asked me what I mean when I say, "Don't Change For Heaven's Sake". Simply look to the core of your being where nothing changes and allow the puzzle pieces to fall into place.

Know you are blessed and you are a blessing in this world.

A Post Without A Title

You may find this post has little point or no directional thread. Though I usually write from a place of sharing inspiration, this post may not be even that but perhaps it will be a jumping off point for some of you to begin to accept who you are and love the gifts you have been given.

I hear and see so much pain, fear and suffering these days. Facebook posts are either depressing or a fantasy of hope of good things to come. Some inspire telling us, in truth your good is here now. Stop looking ahead, behind and to either side to find it. It has always been with you and is there inside of you now.

I experience so much practicing energy awareness, if this is a proper term. I have become uncomfortable with the terms, healer, teacher, energy practitioner. It is as though these terms set me apart from others, when in truth we are all healers, teachers and practitioners. I find it arrogant to think my experience of the energy that surrounds us all is superior to the experiences of others.

So at this point in my life, I find I have no title. I have taken classes that offer me titles such as Stress Management Consultant, Book of Life Specialist, Delegate of the Light, Reiki Master..... none of which feel comfortable these days. Raised in the United Church, attending Catholic services for 10 years, studying Angels, Wicca, Shamanism, Energy Medicine and Reiki as well as varied holistic modalities over the past 25 years has provided me with a balance and blend of interesting beliefs.

I take note of what seems to make people happy. For some happiness comes in terms of money, for others it is their health, others look to their spouse or children to make them happy, children expect their parents to make them happy. For some happiness is elusive, completely related to how successful they feel in their jobs. Others use a happy exterior to cover the pain they carry inside. So what is happy? It is a question I have been asking for about 47 years now, as I made a youthful promise to make the world a happier place, if only I could be happy.

For years I blamed God, because I could not find this elusive attribute. I practiced the fake it til you make it approach, and after years of faking it realized that approach was just too much work with very little gain. Yes, I had moments. Moments when I thought, "This is it!" "I've made it.". Yet when I blinked it disappeared in an instant.

I knew I was happiest when outside with trees, birds, flowers and bright blue skies, and learned that shamanism was about finding our connection to Source through nature. The thought of Angels brought a feeling of peace, so I studied and experienced what they offered in terms of joy. Reiki fell into my life, giving me the experience of allowing energy to flow, without having to be in control. At first this was scary, for my control freak personality, but it became the catalyst for discovering that joy and happiness do not come from external sources, or events occurring around me. In fact I discovered happiness was easier to reach when I was alone. So how could I take this happiness of solitude out into the world?

In the process of taking it out into the world, I discovered I could not make others happy just because I had found that inner joy for myself. It is impossible to make another happy. This itself made me feel quite sad for a while, and in fact I still fall into helplessness at times when I see so much pain and suffering in the world. There are many reasons some just can't seem to find the sparkle in life. It may be clinical, drug induced, hormone related, and multiple medical reasons. For some it is a belief they are not worthy of happiness, and others just don't know what they would talk about if they had no reason to complain.

I understand many of the reasons, having experienced them for myself. I even understand those who now avoid me because they just can't handle someone being happy through loss and depressing economic times. I can only apologize. It is not that I do not have compassion for your misery. It is just I find more strength in faith and trust, than in pity and tears. Somewhat selfish perhaps.

For those who suffer for medical reasons I hold out hope you will find good therapies, the right medications to balance your hormones and chemistry. I pray you will continue to seek within to find the connection, helping you to be the joyful person you are inside. I support you in your acceptance of the life you have chosen. I commend you for sharing your journey so others will know they are not alone, and most all be inspired to seek help and support on their own journey. You are my heroes. I believe what many of you feel is a curse, is really a gift which Spirit knows you are strong enough to carry.

There are spaces reserved in my heart for those who are no longer with me in this life. I will not mourn their passing for I know they are still with me. I miss them, yes and yet recognize how much closer I can be with them than before they passed.

I do feel sympathy for the concerns people have right now for loss of jobs, loss of security. Or at least loss of the security they believe is important. Changing times are always scary when we believe houses, cars, boats, and bank accounts are what is important. (Personally, I am just checking to make sure I have enough money to buy plane fare to a beautiful beach. If I am homeless, I think a beach would be better than an unyielding sidewalk.) I say this not to make fun of your fear, but in all seriousness. There really is a bright side to be seen.

Those who used to sell horse and buggies must have suffered the same fear when cars became the newest means of travel. Our railways have lost significance to air travel. Many of our parents suffered the dirty 30's - even more significant is the fact that they survived. This generation also came through at least one if not two world wars and the Russian cold war. How many small farmers were engulfed by big farming operations, there way of life changed forever?

The biggest thing of note is SURVIVAL. It is what we do. We can choose to survive through suffering, or survive in thanks. We can move forward in faith and joy, choosing peace rather than greed and anger. We can inspire rather than try to bring others down, just because we are unhappy. We can support and work together.

No we can't make others happy, yet if we are happy our energy swirls through the atmosphere. If we are peace that too is carried on the wind. If we are strong in the face of our troubles, that strength will carry another.

So it is okay that I have no title. A title is not required. Making others happy is not my job. Being happy though is my responsibility. It is my choice. It is who I am. If I can inspire others to choose to be who they are, without embarrassment or apology, that is all that matters. You may be born to be peace, to be prosperity, to be the embodiment of health. You may be born to be the role model for those who struggle with health and happiness. It does not matter. Your label does not represent your goodness. Only what is inside and what you share with the world matters.

The more work I do as a "healer" and "teacher" the more I love and respect those who reach beyond the label the world has put on them. I see within each person I meet a spark of the Divine who has given us purpose through our creation. If only we could accept the part we were given to play, instead of constantly striving to play the parts of others.

Today I accept and allow myself to just be, knowing no matter what happens in the world, I will be guided and directed to do the next good thing I was created to do.

Thank you to all who have been part of this journey. May we continue to travel together learning from each other, inspiring and supporting through the best of times, yet to come.

And He Walks With Me and He Talks With Me

This experiment, along with a couple of miracles has changed my perception of the world almost to the point I feel as though I am in a different life time all together.

Where once I looked for a God somewhere in the unknown mist, I now look within to find the places I have resisted love, resisted my good. Now I look for memories of guilt and unworthiness and weed them out to make room for flowers to bloom.

It seems like yesterday and so long ago when I walked along a dusty road, listening for frogs, and felt the voice of Jesus talking to me, promising I would never be alone. I said I will follow you if you will just show me how to make this world a happier place for everyone.

I hated the sadness, the hurt, the anger. Our house was so full of fear. I see now it was fear though then I felt it was me creating all of the pain. Once again I see as I look through the looking glass, it was I, who as my experience, was the pain. I was the sadness. I was the fear. I had chosen this family for these lessons, for these moments of knowing life was not supposed to hurt like this.

Through an underlying current of love, I could not break the glass keeping us apart, so instead I let my heart break a little each day. It seemed that walk was just an illusion, a dream to ease just for a moment in time.

I still feel the joy as the frogs welcomed me to their world that warm summers night. I think of how often the memory held me up, kept me strong. I think of how often the memory made me more angry because I felt deserted, rejected, mocked for my innocent belief in something better, something magical.

I walked that road so many nights. Each time the frogs called out to me. Often butterflies joined me, teasing me to follow them into the fields, to see through their eyes. Yet I was not to hear the comforting voice again, for many years. Many tears were shed, yet here was still the comfort I sought. I desperately tried to feel that voice again.

But in the garden, on a nature walk, camping with family, there I could find peace, feel my place in life. Here I was free, still waiting for the voice to comfort me, yet feeling solace there. Perhaps I was not alone, perhaps no reason to feel so lost. Here was the happiness promised me, though fleeting as I returned to a world where people could not be made happy. What good was I to this world, if all I brought was disappointment and despair?

For years I rode the merry-go-round feeling a connection, feeling lost, knowing abundance, suffering loss. For years I thought I had found the mystery, only to find no clarity, no consistency. My daily intention to make the world a better place, to give a person a smile, security, love, seemed a losing battle. While for many days and often weeks I felt progress, it was only to follow with as much time feeling I had failed. Each time picking up the pieces, nevertheless when I felt like giving up there was a pressure inside of me so strong, I felt I might blow up before the world, leaving tiny bits of me strewn across the country side like leaves on a tree in fall.

I watched as leaves were carried from a tree and whipped across the sky and wondered how they must feel to be wrenched from their source. Is that what was scaring me - that I had been pulled from my Source with no way back. Each time I sat in quiet answers were given, but then I did not listen with my proper ears, or with my heart. Thoughts were just thoughts. No meaning then. But now........

And then the dream shattered my world, brought me to my senses. A dream that made my senses come fully alive.

Each time now when I go to a garden, take a nature walk or listen to the rain, I feel the voice. I hear a song I so often heard as a child. It is comfort. It is strength. It is faith. It is love.

The tears falling as I write this are of joy, knowing I have never been alone and forever and eternity, I will be carried by the greatest love this world will ever know. It was me all along, and now I know it must be me first, I carry my happiness with gratitude. A world cannot be made happy unless those in the world choose to be happy. With a sigh of relief I can share with all, knowing they are in charge of their own destiny and we all have the same gift within when we are ready to go to the garden alone.

If you are drawn to the garden, here is the song to which I dedicate this post, as well as to my mother and Aunty Clara, who taught me the joy found in flowers, and strawberry beds. In loving memory of my father, whose faith I only now understand,  I feature his beloved Hansa roses in the photo. Another reason I chose this family was to learn how close we really are to our Source. We are not like the trees whose leaves are torn from it's branches each fall. We are as strong as held as tightly as the pine trees that grew in the front yard, needles that are held season after season.
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Always know you are never alone. There is one who walks with you always.

Are You Ready For The Responsibilty

I decided I would share this blog with Facebook today. I was waiting until the book was complete, but that seems a long time coming. So much has happened since I wrote the first hypothesis, based on a dream.... Read the excerpt from the book here:  Introduction to the Hypothesis

I began to journal daily about this dream. As I wrote, I began to feel into the emotion of the dream. How could a God that didn't care produce such warm and welcoming energy.? How could a God that did not care provide such a protective feeling within me? What was I missing. I would pull myself together, ask for understanding, and carry on with my day. Through out that day and those that followed, I would continue to hear the same message each time I sought the guidance of my angels and guides. Finally I sat in meditation and my question for that session was, "What the heck?" (I didn't really say heck, but I'm trying to keep this clean)

The message that came in that meditation and later dreams is summed up in the hypothesis, and I write about further messages in my blogs and daily posts. God is not out there looking down on you. We use he or she to describe God, but God is really neither, but rather the same energy as you and I for we were created in "his" likeness. All of this sent me back to "A Course In Miracles", which I had closed the cover on for a few years, though I still remembered the lessons. This time I began to read the text. Many of my questions were answered there.

God is nothing we are not and we are nothing God is not. We are the creation of God, each of us a small cell of "his" being. To say you do not believe in God is to say you do not believe in your own existence. God cannot exist but through each of us. That is our oneness. We are all a spark in the Divine Energy of Creation.

All that happens in life is just that, life that happens. God does not sit in judgement of us. When life is good it is because we are connecting with our own divinity. When things seem bad, it is because we are not creating, expanding, growing, serving, or loving. That is all God can help with, he knows nothing else. Asking should I do this or that, when both choices are for the good of all, cannot be answered, except through your own decision. There are no wrong choices, unless they are leading to something that is less than love, being chosen through fear instead of grace.

For years, though I had a knowing that Jesus walked with me, I was not happy with the church or the interpretations of the scripture. I saw the words differently. I did not want a God who would punish me when I made mistakes. I also have authority issues, and prefer not to be stonewalled into doing something I don't want to do. Now I see that through these years I had the audacity to thing I was independent from this energy and at times believed I had more power and strength. In truth I was competing with God. Here is where you can have a good laugh. I have over the years since the dream, and each time I find myself competing, I see the humor in it, forgive myself for being an "idiot" and reclaim my alignment from within. Within is the only place God is - Within each person, animal, bird, fish, plant and situation.

So if the operations of God are in our hands, hearts and minds, can we be responsible enough to perform the duties we agreed to when we stood in line to choose a body for this game of life? Can we find God's thoughts, and express them as they are meant to be expressed? We were given all the tools, then sadly, had our memory of home erased, with faith from God that we would remember when the time was right. Is the time right for you? Are you ready to step into your greatness and loving power and be that which you are? Are you willing to take responsibility?

God gave man dominion over the earth, because we are his operations mangers. His business cannot run without us. While God Energy is more pure, strong and faithful than ours, he bestowed on his creations all that he is.  In numbers we match his energy, alone we can do nothing. He needs all of us to work on his behalf, in love.

I have not shared this previously because I was afraid people would see me differently. Who I Am has not changed (read "Don't Change For Heaven's Sake for a better understanding of the I Am principle) but what I choose to reflect in the world has.

Accepting responsibility does not ask for sacrifice or change of lifestyle, though life seems different. Taking responsibility will not bring more in material terms, though what you want becomes much different. Taking responsibility does not make you better than your neighbor, though some may become jealous of your new found sense of peace and joy. Taking responsibility is an inside job, and no one needs to know, except by your choosing.

The world needs more of us to accept our divinity. Only then can peace prevail.

You are a blessing in this world.
I Love You Thank You.

Ask And It Shall Be Given

What if you are the creation? What if you are seeking a "God" that only exists in and through you?"

How often have you prayed and felt your prayer wasn't answered? Did you take action on the unanswered prayer? How did you shift your perception to hear an answer or see the answer? Did you simply pray and then carry on with your life without doing something in the direction of the prayer?

You have heard the statement, "God helps those who help themselves." Now is the time to really understand the meaning of that. Begin by understanding the concept that "God doesn't care." God is nothing but Love and cannot, no matter how hard we try, do anything other than Love. This energy called "God" does not care if you are rich or poor, working or not working, sharing or not sharing. God does not care if you have a new car or new boat. God does not care if you are happy or sad, grieving or celebrating. Know now, God does not care - the energy of creation does not have the ability to judge your circumstance.

I am not saying, "Do not pray." I truly believe in prayer. But prayers can only be answered when you are willing to hear your prayer, believe that the prayer has activated Universal Energy, and agree to do your part in bringing about the petition you have made. Yes, often we get in the way of creating our good because we do not let the flow of activation move smoothly. We continue to push, or question our worth in having the prayer come true. There are times when surrender is required. But surrender is not giving up, which so often happens. We pray. The miracle doesn't happen in 24 hours, and so we say, "I surrender" and completely give up. It is not God who has not answered your prayer. It is you who has pushed your good away. True surrender is to let go of attachment to the actual outcome of the prayer, to know a Higher Power within you is directing the creation for your highest good. Often what we think we want is small in comparison to what the Universe wants for us. When we try to control the outcome too much, we lose the full gift of a miracle.

If you believe you deserve a thing, call upon the Universe for help, then take time each day to review that prayer, ask how you can be of service to the petition, follow your heart (not your head), taking small guided steps toward the creation of your desire. You cannot lose faith, either in yourself or the Universe.

Know that you are the creation, the power of creation lies within you, and you do deserve your desires, when they "create more for all and less for none". Know that the Energy of God can only work through you. You must stay present to your desires, detached from the actual outcome, but always focused on the feeling having your desire will create.

We ask for "stuff" in our prayers, but essentially we know it is not the specific thing we want. It is the feeling that comes with our idea of having something. We believe material goods solve our problems, but in reality it is the feeling that comes with a material thing that makes us smile, creates a better life, or solves the problem. The thing itself is just a symbol. Feelings are all that matter in the end.

Often our prayer is for selfish or less than creative means. These prayers are not of a loving nature. The Energy of God cannot intervene in deliverance. Those prayers are answered by a lower self and will always bring a consequence of pain and suffering. I urge you to stay away from this idea of creation.

So too, when our motives are not from a place of total love, we find our prayers and dreams are slow to manifest. Speed of creation comes from a high vibration. A high vibration comes from a place of desiring the highest and best for all in the world. When we come from a place of love our prayers are almost instantly gratified.

Begin to pay attention to what you are asking for, how you are asking for it, and how you are being in the flow of the creation of your desire. You are the creator. You are the one who can care about others, about life. That is your purpose. You were created to be that which God cannot be, in order to be that experience for the Energy that created you.

 "Ask and it shall be given."

YOU ARE HERE TO BE A CREATIVE EXPRESSION OF GOD.

I think the more you review the hypothesis of this blog, you may begin to agree that God cannot care about you unless you care about yourself. God does not exist except in and through you.

Believe in Yourself.   Love Yourself.   Trust Yourself.  Have Faith in Yourself.

LIFE IS AN EXPRESSION OF CREATION.

CREATION IS GOD.

YOU ARE HERE TO BE A CREATIVE EXPRESSION OF GOD.

Until we can fully embody this idea we will continue to look to outward circumstances as our reality. We will continue to blame an unseen force for our circumstances. We will continue to live in the muck and mire of our belief that God will rescue us, sending a miracle to lift us out of the demise we have created, without doing anything for ourselves.

  

Do you not see that God created ALL as an expression and as the instrument to perform miracles, and expand original creation?

  

Can you for just one moment allow yourself to be that creative, miraculous expression? Even in anger we are expressing God. In a moment of self-doubt we are expressing God. In times of deep desire we express the emotions and feelings that God alone cannot express. Whenever we feel with sincerity, act with integrity, love without condition, we light the world with all that God imagined.

There would be no need for war, murder, theft, addiction, grief, hatred, blame if we could all just feel into the truth of our creation. We all are provided for in equal, unbiased measure. We are all gifted with skills and talents as needed, when needed. We all have equal opportunity to live according to our desires, in a harm to none way.

God is not a physical being who will be found in seeking. There are many who have heard the voice of God, seen the Light of God or the Hand of God, but the only way God can be heard or seen is through the individual lens of each being. It is an inward realization, not an outward presence. We may get a glimpse of what feels physical through another being expressing the ideas and thoughts we perceive to be God, but these are the expression of another.

Each of us has been programmed through childhood, past lives and daily experiences. These programs affect our belief in God and what God is and isn't. Please take a moment to sit with this and know the truth.

You are the God you are seeking. In each moment you can choose to be the Light of God or the Shadow of God, but nothing can change your creation. You can choose to be a certain way. You can choose to be a certain expression of your Creator. As this living expression of God, you draw upon your desires, and your creative imagination becomes physical manifestation.

How many years have you spent praying to a God that never seems to answer? How often have you blamed God for the circumstances of your life?

Are you ready to take your rightful power and create your desires? If you are ready for the responsibility, take time to meditate, to pray, to become that which you are desiring. You are the miracle. Can you take responsibility?