Is It Surrender or Just Giving Up?

I find myself sitting with the hypothesis (the theme of this blog) and wonder about the difference between surrender and giving up. If God doesn't care, and cannot be manipulated, how does surrender work?

With desires formed and goals set, what happens when we surrender their manifestation to the Universe, to this Energy that provides growth and expansion? Why is it I feel like I am giving up more than just control over the outcome of my dreams? How do we know what is appropriate action and what is getting in the way of God's Plan?

I consider my thoughts and feelings. Are they in integrity to the service of the "God Within All"? Are my desires fulfilling the bigger picture? Am I providing the love and caring expression that the Energy of God cannot provide? Most of all do my dreams and ambitions create growth and expression for the "God Within" me? What is the real purpose of my choice? Am I choosing for social status or approval or am I choosing greater life for all, including myself.

I think sometimes we worry about our decisions out of fear that we are selfish, or that we are not following a socially acceptable path. We wonder if God is happy with our desires. We continually question our worthiness to have what we want. We wonder if we should want less or strive for more.

When our dreams to be continually just out of reach, we feel rejected. This is the point when many begin their own process of manipulation. Here is the time of taking back control, justifying it with the thought that God has not done "his" part, so we must do it on our own.

What if instead we looked within to why we are rejecting ourselves? What is it that is missing from the inner sanctum of our creative force? What is lacking within? What are we projecting that is not congruent with what we desire? What is the contradiction of what we have and what we desire to have?

Are we using God as the excuse for not having our dreams come true? If you answer yes, then you have given up. If you say no, and look deeper within for the answer you will find true surrender, adjust the inner sanctum and continue to work faithfully toward the dream, knowing all will come to those who serve in trust.